Monga bambo woyembekezera wa matenda a muubongo, ndinayesetsa kukonzekera, koma kubereka mwadzidzidzi kunandipangitsa kuti ndichite ngozi.
Nditawerenga mabuku ambiri onyamula ana pa intaneti, sindinapeze imodzi yomwe ingandilole kumangirira mwanayo pachifuwa ndi dzanja limodzi lokha. M’miyezi ingapo, mkazi wanga Lisa adzabala mwana wathu woyamba, ndipo ndikuyang’ana wonyamula bwino kwambiri kuti athetse nkhawa yanga monga mayi woyembekezera amene ali ndi matenda a muubongo.
Ndinayesa zingwe zitatu zomwe zikuwonetsedwa mu sitolo, imodzi inali yachiwiri, ndipo ina inagulidwa pa intaneti, yomwe inkawoneka ngati hammock yaying'ono. Kukonza aliyense wa iwo ndi dzanja lako lamanzere yekha si njira-ndipo kufunika kumangiriza zidutswa zingapo za nsalu pamodzi kumawoneka ngati nthabwala zankhanza. Nditawatumizanso kusitolo, ndinavomera kuti Lisa anafunika kundithandiza kumanga lamba wapampando wathu wakhanda.
Ndili ndi zaka 32, CP yanga imatha kulamulidwa nthawi zambiri. Ngakhale phazi langa lakumanja likhoza kupindika, ndimatha kuyenda ndekha. Mchemwali wanga anandiphunzitsa kumanga zingwe za nsapato ndili mnyamata, ndipo ndinaphunzira kuyendetsa galimoto mothandizidwa ndi zipangizo zosinthira ndili ndi zaka za m’ma 20. Komabe, ndimalembabe ndi dzanja limodzi.
Mosasamala kanthu za ziletso za tsiku ndi tsiku, ndinathera zaka zambiri kuyesa kuiŵala kuti ndili ndi chilema, ndipo kufikira posachedwapa ndinanyalanyaza kuulula CP yanga kwa ena a mabwenzi anga apamtima chifukwa cha kuwopa kwanga chiweruzo. Pamene tinayamba chibwenzi zaka zisanu ndi zitatu zapitazo, zinanditengera mwezi umodzi kuti ndimuuze Lisa za izo.
Nditayesa kubisa dzanja lamanja lokhotakhota komanso lopindika mosalekeza kwa nthaŵi yaitali ya moyo wanga wonse, tsopano ndatsimikiza mtima kuvomereza kulumala kwanga panthaŵi imene Lisa anali ndi pakati. Ndinabwerera ku chithandizo chamankhwala kwanthaŵi yoyamba kuyambira ndili mwana kuti ndiphunzire maluso atsopano, monga kusintha matewera ndi manja aŵiri, kuti ndikonzekere mwakuthupi mwana wanga woyamba. Ndifunikanso kwambiri kuti ndipeze kuvomerezedwa ndi thupi langa lolumala, kupereka chitsanzo cha kudzikonda ndekha kwa mwana wanga Nowa.
Patatha miyezi ingapo yakusaka kwathu, Lisa pamapeto pake adapeza lamba laling'ono la BabyBjörn, lomwe ndidaganiza kuti ndidasankha bwino kwambiri wodwala wanga wakuthupi. Chingwecho chimakhala ndi zolumikizira zosavuta, zomata, komanso kachingwe kakang'ono kwambiri. Ndikhoza kukonza ndi dzanja limodzi, koma ndikufunikirabe thandizo kuti ndikonze. Ndikukonzekera kuyesa chonyamulira chatsopano ndi zida zina zosinthira mothandizidwa ndi Lisa mwana wathu akadzafika.
Zimene sindinkayembekezera n’zakuti zikanakhala zovuta kulera mwana ngati munthu wolumala ngakhale mwana wanga asanabwerere kunyumba. Kubadwa kowawa komanso mwadzidzidzi pambuyo pobereka kunatanthauza kuti ndinayenera kusamalira Nowa kwa masiku awiri oyambirira a moyo popanda thandizo la Lisa.
Pambuyo pa maola 40 akubala - kuphatikizapo maola anayi akukankhira, ndiyeno dokotala wa Lisa atatsimikiza kuti Nowa wakhazikika, gawo lachidziwitso la C linachitidwa-mwana wathu anabwera kudziko lino ali ndi thanzi labwino, ali ndi nsidze zazitali komanso zokongola. nsalu yotchinga kuti adotolo anakuwa pa opareshoni.
Lisa anaseka ndi namwinoyo uku akusonkhanitsa zizindikiro zofunika m’malo ochirawo, ndipo ndinayesa kunyamula mwana wathu ndi dzanja langa lamanja kuti amayi ake awone masaya ake otuwa ali pafupi nafe. Ndinayang'anitsitsa kusunga mikono yanga, chifukwa CP yanga inachititsa kuti mbali yanga yamanja ikhale yofooka komanso yochepetsetsa, choncho sindinaone anamwino ambiri akuyamba kusefukira m'chipindamo.
Manesi anali ndi nkhawa pamene anayesa kuletsa kutaya magazi. Ndinayang'ana mosowa chochita, kuyesa kukhazika mtima pansi kulira kwa Nowa ndikugona pa mkono wanga wakumanja womwe ukunjenjemera ndi thupi lake laling'ono.
Lisa anabwereranso pansi atagwidwa ndi opaleshoni kuti adokotala adziwe malo omwe amatuluka magazi ndikuchita opareshoni ya embolization kuti magazi asiye kutuluka. Ine ndi mwana wanga tinatumizidwa kuchipinda chobelekera tokha, pamene Lisa anapita ku chipinda cha odwala mwakayakaya kuti akawonedwe. Pofika m’maŵa wotsatira, adzalandira mayunitsi asanu ndi limodzi a magazi ndi mayunitsi aŵiri a madzi a m’magazi.
Dokotala wa Lisa ankangobwerezabwereza kuti atasamutsidwira kuchipinda choberekera atatha masiku awiri ku ICU, anali okondwa kumuwona ali moyo. Panthaŵi imodzimodziyo, ine ndi Nowa tili tokha.
Apongozi anga anagwirizana nafe m’nthaŵi zodzacheza nafe, akumandithandiza kokha pamene kuli kofunikira, ndi kundipatsa mpata woti ndiikenso Nowa pamene dzanja langa lamanja linatseka mosadzifunira. Ndikukhulupirira kuti zomangirazo zithandizanso, ngakhale sindimayembekezera kumasula posintha thewera.
Pampando waku chipatala, dzanja langa lamanja linali likulendewera mofooka chifukwa ndidazindikira momwe mkono wanga wosafananira umathandizira Nowa kukhala wokhazikika, ndipo ndidamukweza ndikumudyetsa ndi dzanja langa lamanzere - ndidapeza mwachangu pansi pa chigongono changa chakumanja ndikuyika mapilo ndikutsamira pamwana. lowetsani mkono wanga wopindika ndiyo njira yopitira. Chikwama chapulasitiki chokhala ndi kapu ya botolo chikhoza kutsegulidwa ndi mano anga, ndipo ndinaphunzira kugwira botolo pakati pa chibwano ndi khosi pamene ndikumunyamula.
Zaka zingapo zapitazo, ndinasiya kupeŵa mafunso okhudza CP yanga. Munthu wina atandigwira chanza moti sindinathe kumuyankha, ndinangoti ndili ndi chilema. Chipinda choperekerako si malo omwe amandidetsa nkhawa za kulumala kwanga, kotero ndimalengeza kwa namwino aliyense amene amabwera kudzawona Nowa kuti ndili ndi CP.
Zofooka zanga ndizowonekera kwambiri kuposa kale. Monga bambo wolumala, makolo anga adzakhala osatetezeka kwambiri. Nthawi zambiri ndimaonedwa kuti ndine munthu wosalumala, ndipo n’zokhumudwitsa kukhala pakati pa zimene anthu ambiri amaganiza kuti n’zachibadwa komanso zimafuna thandizo. Komabe, mkati mwa masiku athu aŵiri m’chipindacho chobelekera, ndinali ndi chidaliro m’kukhoza kwanga kulera Nowa ndi kudzitetezera.
Pa Lamlungu dzuŵa, milungu ingapo Lisa atatulutsidwa m’chipatala, anaika Nowa m’chingwe, chomwe chinamangidwa pamapewa anga ndi pachifuwa pakati pa zingwe. Ndimagwiritsa ntchito mkono wanga wamanja, monga ndinaphunzirira kuchipatala, kuti ndimugwire, pamene dzanja langa lamanzere limangiriridwa pamwamba. Panthaŵi imodzimodziyo, Lisa anayesa kukankhira miyendo ya Nowa m’mabowo ang’onoang’ono kuti ndisamafikeko. Atangolimbitsa gulu lomaliza, tinali okonzeka.
Titachita masitepe angapo m’chipinda chogona, ine ndi Lisa tinayenda ulendo wautali m’tauni yathu. Noa wālaile mukanda wampikwa budimbidimbi mu njibo yandi, wampikwa budimbidimbi.
Christopher Vaughan ndi wolemba yemwe amagwiranso ntchito yosindikiza magazini. Amakhala ndi mkazi wake komanso mwana wake wamwamuna ku Tarrytown, New York
Nthawi yotumiza: Nov-15-2021
